she has faith for the road ahead

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"What is faith?"  I posed the question to the three little faces staring back at me. My youngest points to her sister sitting next to her and giggles. And my heart remembers walking that path behind our home with two little boys walking next to me. The two boys I had just sent off to middle school that morning. As we made our daily walk down to the stream to throw rocks, we discussed this same question. That was the day we decided together that this little girl we were waiting for would be named Faith. And now here I was staring into the eyes of my daily reminder. 
Faith knows the answer to this question. She has heard the story thousands of times. "It is believing in something that you can't see with your eyes." Yes baby. We knew God would help us find you and bring you home. You were a promise long before we saw your face. 
There is another part to that verse, though. The verse that God wrote on our hearts that day in September. "the assur…

Make me like the Deer

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My dreams were crashing all around me. I began to wonder if I just needed to accept that I wasn't the kind of person God could use in the way my heart desired. What had started as whispers of doubt were now in max volume on repeat in my heart. My failures seemed insurmountable. My emotions raw. My soul weary.

The mountain called to me. I started my ascent running. Pushing myself physically has always been my outlet. In the movement my wild thoughts pour out to my Heavenly Father. The path becomes steeper now and I find myself jumping over fallen logs. My running feet slow to a walk as the dirt floor turns into solid rock. The way has become too difficult to climb so I find a ledge where I can rest. Rest. "Come to Me all who are weary and I will give you rest". The view is breathtaking. The beauty of His creation begins to speak life to the deepest parts of my soul.

I recently learned a practice called "Palms up/Palms down". The idea is to quiet y…

Watermelon Cake

Summertime is Birthday time at our house. All seven of us have smmer birthdays.  And three of my kids have birthdays within a two week time span at the end of June. Lots of fun but it can lso mean lots of unhealthy food. You may be thinking... but it's their birthday.  However with so many birthdays in a row, things can quickly start to unravel and some of our crew will get horribly sick having that many "cheats". So what's a mom to do???
I was trying to think of something fun and that a word??..for a birthday dessert that could hold some candles and still taste yummy. Something that didn't require the oven and was gluten free with minimal dairy. Something that was round in shape like a cake and could still have fun decorations. Then as I was in the shower the day before our party it hit me...watermelons. As a side note, the shower is my thinking place.  When you have five children it is one of the only places you can be by yourself and the water dr…

how a crazy man and a bunch of pigs changed my entire perspective

Have you ever read Mark 5?  It is one of the wildest stories in the Bible and one of my favorites.  Jesus and His disciples take a trip to "the other side" of the sea, to go to the region of Gerasenes, a place largely inhabited by Gentiles and a place where no "good" jew would ever go. That statement alone is enough to just sit and ponder, but we will continue. So Jesus and his tribe arrive by boat. As soon as He gets out of the boat a man begins to walk towards him.  Now this man is not coming to welcome Jesus, no instead he runs to Jesus, falls at his feet and cries out
What do you want with me, Jesus, Son of the Most High God? Swear to God that you won't torture me!
This man was filled and tortured by many demons.  So many that the demons say their name is Legion.  During that time a Roman legion was known to have about 6000 men! Did you notice that this legion fell at the feet of Jesus?  The demons then begin to start begging him to not send them out of tha…

love looks like a humble servant: thoughts on maundy thursday

He knew the time had come.  He knew this was the end of His days in human flesh on this earth. The hours were now numbered.  What would He do with this last evening?...  Heal a multitude of people? Preach a moving sermon to thousands? Make one last public appearance to perhaps show them who He is? Put on display His great might and power? No, instead He meets for dinner in a private room with his twelve disciples. His purpose was love. "He loved them to the end."  (john 13:1)

I am not sure why it still surprises me when God moves in a way so upside down from what we would expect. The beauty of the scene that night leaves me in awe.
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things came into being through Him, and apart from Him nothing came into being that has come into being. In Him was life, and the life was the Light of men.
The One who is spoken of in this first chapter of John demonstrated the di…

inside out egg rolls and sesame salad

When I was a little girl my Dad served his country for a year in Korea while we waiting for him back in Tennessee. He came home with some beautiful gifts that are now treasured items in my own home and also some delicious recipes.  Our family loved making what we called "Korean Egg Rolls" and we really loved eating them!  Lots of time and love spent rolling and frying.  I have taken an all day affair and made it manageable for a weeknight family dinner.  No rolling or frying but all the delicousness of the inside of that eggroll. *** And remember my recipes all feed a party.... or a family of seven that wants to have leftover. 

Inside Out Eggrolls
1  Chinese or Savoy Cabbage finely chopped 2 cups of sprouts 2 onions chopped 5 carrots shredded 4 green onions 3 eggs, beaten 1 1/2 t salt 1t pepper 6 cloves garlic chopped 3 lb ground beef from a happy cow 2 T sesame oil 1 T sesame seeds (in the spring I love to add some ramps to this dish)
Saute onions and garlic in 2 T coconut …

making healthy eating work for a family of seven

About eight years ago, I started changing our family's eating habits.  My first goal was to try to eat closer to how my great grandmother would have eaten when she was growing up.  We started to remove the processed foods from our diet and replaced the menu with whole foods and recipes from scratch.  The next step was to begin to buy local and organic.  We started with just the foods that we ate all the time and worked towards replacing our entire diet. As we became more aware of what we were eating, we started to notice some other patterns.  Certain foods would cause the children to have a more difficult time focusing and they would struggle to make good choices.  The first things to go were food coloring and high fructose corn syrup.  There were other foods that when we didn't have them in our diets we all felt better and when we put them back in we started having health issues.  Gluten and Dairy were at the top of this list.  Our family started working with a functional me…